Wednesday, December 01, 2010



Searching for Solitude. . .

It's the first day of December, and it snowed today. Perfect beginning of the last month of this year. It wasn't enough to accumulate much, but it was just enough to thank God for the beauty of His earth and to be reminded of all of His blessings.

I am going through a great struggle right now, so I am asking for your prayers to hellp me through. It's a very private struggle, and it has life-changing consequences depending on what I decide to do. I have never felt this lost and alone and sad before. There is virtually nobody to talk to about this. Last night, I had a "meltdown" which lasted over an hour - just a long talk with God with lots and lots of tears and questions and not knowing what His will is in all of this.

I never thought I would get to this point in my life. But I am hurting and desparate and not sure where to go or what to do. I do know I am utterly exhausted and just need some time alone to think and pray. Solitude in the snow. . .

8 Comments:

At 11:18 PM, Blogger Kevin said...

I'll pray for you.

 
At 5:56 AM, Blogger Valerie said...

Thanks, Kevin - I appreciate it!

 
At 10:33 AM, Blogger Gina Burgess said...

Va, I am hurting for you. Although I do not know your situation, I have felt exactly like what you are feeling. Those are the times when it was just me and God alone that helped my world to right itself, and helped me to know beyond doubt that God is bigger than any problem I had or will ever have. It helped me to trust Him deeper and broader than I ever had before. I will be praying and I'm always here for you if you need someone to talk to!

 
At 8:53 AM, Anonymous Kathie said...

Praying for you.

 
At 2:54 PM, Anonymous Angel said...

Val,
Whatever it is I hope that you will get through it and God will be with you.
I will pray for you and your family and am here for you if you need a friend to listen or to lean on.

 
At 11:39 PM, Blogger Mamasita said...

Hoping things are going better for you.

Sending prayers either way.

 
At 7:13 PM, Blogger Heidi Pocketbook said...

Valerie, I will send up an unspoken request for you.

 
At 11:37 PM, Blogger Valerie said...

Thank you, everybody. Things are becoming clearer, and I know which direction I must take. I appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers so much. I wish all of you a blessed New Year!

 

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