Searching for Solitude. . .

It's the first day of December, and it snowed today. Perfect beginning of the last month of this year. It wasn't enough to accumulate much, but it was just enough to thank God for the beauty of His earth and to be reminded of all of His blessings.

I am going through a great struggle right now, so I am asking for your prayers to hellp me through. It's a very private struggle, and it has life-changing consequences depending on what I decide to do. I have never felt this lost and alone and sad before. There is virtually nobody to talk to about this. Last night, I had a "meltdown" which lasted over an hour - just a long talk with God with lots and lots of tears and questions and not knowing what His will is in all of this.

I never thought I would get to this point in my life. But I am hurting and desparate and not sure where to go or what to do. I do know I am utterly exhausted and just need some time alone to think and pray. Solitude in the snow. . .