Anxiously Awaiting

I'm trying not to read too much into the fact that I should have heard today about the tests which were run yesterday. In fact, I really should have heard yesterday. Both times that I have talked to the doctor's office, the nurse has said that the results aren't there yet - but that is doctor-speak for the doctor has my chart on his desk and just hasn't gotten around to calling me yet. My regular doctor, a female, is on vacation this week, and her fill-in is quite busy covering not only my doctor's patients but his own as well. So, I am sure he's very overworked right now, which is the most likely reason why he hasn't called yet. But, my mind is busy with anxiety - thinking the worst - that perhaps he hasn't called because the results are bad and he has to contact my regular doctor to see how she wants to handle it all, or he's trying to find a specialist to send me to. Then, I recall that usually doctors call the patients who have the bad results first, thus making those with relatively good or not-so-bad results have to wait for their news.

I hate waiting. I'm not very good at this at all. It reminds me of the time when I really was ill, and had to have major surgery - and how difficult and painful that experience was for me. All I can do is pray, and wait, and pray some more. Thanks for checking in.