I Love My Girls

I am so blessed to be a mom. Despite all the difficulties and heartbreak and pain that I've gone through over the past couple of years, I would never consider quitting this vocation. Simply put, I would die for my girls. I would give my life for them.

The blessings are abundant. I've watched them grow into beautiful young women with hearts full of love and compassion for others. I've witnessed their joy on Christmas morning. I've snuggled with them while reading "Little House on the Prairie" books to them. I've taught them how to discern right from wrong, and I've seen them make a few tough decisions along the way which made me very proud of them. I've heard their laughter and giggles while they were playing with their Barbies on the balcony.

The burdens have been abundant, too. Each of them have faced challenges which weren't "fair" - TP with her illness, and DQ with prejudicial treatment by others - but those challenges have taught all of us how to live and love without fear. I've watched them stumble and fall (literally and figuratively), and I've been there to help them back up and brush away the tears. I've been hurt by some of their actions, just as they have been hurt by some of mine, but somehow we are always able to go beyond those hurts and forgive each other. Sometimes, the pain we have gone through seems almost too much to bear, but we seem to be able to remember that our love for each other is stronger than the pain is, and God is there to help us through it all.

Each of my girls are going through some difficult times right now. While I wish desperately to be able to take away their pain and make it "all better" like I used to be able to do when they were little, I know that I am not able to do that. It grieves me to see them struggling, it kills me to know they are hurting. All I can do is just offer my open arms and an open heart so full of love for them to help comfort them and guide them through these rough waters.

I can't imagine NOT being a mom. I can't imagine what life would be like without my girls. I would never want to imagine anything which might separate me from either one of them. I just want to be the my kids mom - the best mom God intended me to be for them.